today went out for makan...finally gt out of my hse...best part i went out with sha...i loved it...i ate good food...chi-chatted a little...as usual i was left there figuring out wat they were saying...im used to that ady...go st john oso the same...go my class oso the same..go everywhere oso the same...its like im immune to it...sha oso talked less..probably coz she was interested with the other girls talking..i couldnt tell her there n there that i needed company...i just love her so much...she seemed happy with that so i didnt want to make it an issue..hw i wished that i could talk to her just nw as much as i could..bt its ok lah..the next time i'll talk to her if she is interested...or else i'll feel like a fool talking my part of the story n no one hearing it...ssometimes i feel that im the one always being left out...probably coz im a boring person i guess....must try to improve myself..bt it was so nice to see all of them...especially my sha...i was so nervous n anxious at first...bt when i reached yhere i found out that i shouldnt have felt that coz no one really cared...basically, im still boring...im sorry that i cant b like other guys whor so interesting to hang out with like gun or pun for instance...looks like i have to find myself a source of entertainment...my credit oso finishing..i dont know what im gonna do...i hope sha still msg me everyday telling bout her day n her plans...sometimes i feel like just breaking down..am i troubling her so much? its just that i cant live without her company...thinking bout it always makes me in tears..this blog is like for me to write bout my feelings for her...even if she ignores me sometimes,bt its still ok...she is a good fren...its probably just me causing trounle everytime to people....i just hope that one day i can just with her in a movie theatre n just hold her hands n watch the movie...only God know's right now hw i adore her so much....my friends called me crazy so many times coz 'll be texting her all day...bt i just cant help the fact that she is a close dearly sweetheart of mine...so many songs i wrote for her..poems too...if only someone could really understand the real meaning of my poems to her...she is still cute as ever....love u sha....