thought bout it real hard...

i couldnt control myself last nite...im sorry....sha if u're seeing this,i want u to know this.....eversince i met u in my life,i noe u were special to me...bcoz u were there when i was down n depressed..but last nite,u talked to me less...u know how i feel bout that rite...i was angry with u last nite,but now i have cooled down a bit...i just want u to know that i love u so much...everytime i keep telling u,but u sometimes ignore me...im nt blaming u....probably bcoz as the day goes by,u find more frens...i noe im a very boring person to talk to...im nt interesting,im nt fun,im nt enteraining.........but please dont do that again....last nit i felt terribly sorry for yself...i juz didnt show it...bt please forget bout it rite nw....coz i want to move on...pls forgive me if i have done any wrong...its u who always tell me nt to keep my feelings to myself so i let it out here...sorry for the harsh words i used on you...bcoz i couldnt accept it that my best fren juz wasnt there for me...its not ur fault...i noe u hardly go out frm ur hse...so when u see all ur frens here,u wanna have fun...so its nt ur fault...pls forgive me...i know in my life i asked u so many forgiveness...bt pls forgive me.......i will be alright in a few more days...its very hard to get angry with u coz u r my best fren n i love u....i've protect u in so many ways...do u even know that some of your close frens in our clas(boys) always think dirty of you...but i told him off one day...i shouted at him...he kept quiet...ididnt want to tell u this coz he is close to u....so wait ur relationship with him will loosen.....i've helped u so much in life...the other time,one malay boy(nt our class) also thought bad about u...i gave him a punch in his chest n just shouted at him.... i couldnt take it hearing all these bad stuff bout u.....he wanted to bring his gang n all...luckilly badrul was there to help me....even sometimes in staff room,gt lah one teacher,she once talk bad bout u,i argued with her..........my mom say i was rude to the teacher n when i went back home,my mom shouted at me.....i did it coz i cant help people talking bad but u............actually gt a lot more deeds i help u.....bt i dont want to tell u .......bcoz i HATE bragging bout things...i did it bcoz i loved u ever since the day u were my best fren.....so do u get me bout hw i felt last nite when u were nt that bside me the whole time...coz normally u will stay by my side n talk to me for a very long time...i tried to come n talk to last nit too...bt when i was talking to u,u were listening to other people talking....so i just left u there coz u were busy listening.....my whole point is that,pls dont do it again ever!!!! coz i dont want our friendship to b loose just l;ike that....pls msg me like u always do...i miss u a lot...n i love u so damn much.............bt all i noe in these 3 years,u have changed a lot......sha,im sorry k....i love u