i've waited all my life for a friend that can truly understand me for who i am and not what i am...that very moment came when i was 15...that was a very special year...the one that can just divert ur life to every direction...she wasnt just a somebody...she was a girl that i knew i could just pour out my troubles to...she was the one always waiting for me at a corner because she knew that each time i had trouble,i would go back to her....a chubby face,cute nose and amazing eyes was all she possessed...it may seem as if she is a celebrity, BUT she is not..she is my best friend..(please pause for a while,im running out of tissues ady..i need to wipe these tears)...just picture a picture perfect morning..when the sun would begin to rise on a new day..well she was basically just that...she was always early to school...i remember when i would always be by her side doing/copying yesterdays homework....well...that was who she is...she was an independent person and every one depended on her...she would just come to school with her bottle hanging by her shoulders with books on her hands..and that red/maroon pencil case which she always had.......at a first look of her,u might think she is a person who is not capable of doing things..well u are wrong indeed...she took up all her challenges in life and just never had time for herself...part time student,part time daughter and a part time friend...she managed to do her roles successfully....growing with her was always fun..we would quarrell over small things....and sometimes she would burst into tears...yes its always my fault...thats what they say...yes some of it were mine..i know i've hurt her a lot in my life...but doesnt matter at all...because each time we fought,we knew that we bacame more bonded to each other...and were able to trust each other....i dont know what she thinks of me deep down in her heart,BUT what i do know is this, i trust her more than my parents and anybody u can ever think off...we became very close to each other and i knew that she became a part of me....on the FEBRUARY 14th,2007 , we bacame officially best frens on earth...from that day on, i decided that she was everything in my life...and i will protect her too as a best friend....she was just so meaningful in my life...she was like a musical note that always sounds in ur ears...she was a special musical note to me...ever so dearly,ever so loving and ever so faithful...i still can remember when she always shouted at me for disturbing her...and there was once where she thought i took her blue coloured faber castell mechanical pencil....till then she found out that her mom is the one who took it...i had a great laugh...then from that day onwards,i wrote poems bout her...i compose 3 songs for her....she was just to great to tell of...she coloured my life every single day without fail...sometimes she colured my life with sadness and sometimes hapiness...BUT i was an idiot....i didnt really took the time to tell her how i felt bout her...how i really feel...i just cants ay how i really feel bout her..i was just too scared that she might just leave me...i've learnt a lot frm her...she was just too good to me...i always put her decision ahead of me....until the last syllable,she is still my best friend now..although spm is over...we still keep in touch..by messages...till today i've never let her know how i feel bout her...she maybe thinks that im that ordinary guy,that boring person,that GUY!!!! juz an ordinary guy....without fail each day i comment her on my fb....she nvr commented on my fb profile bt i nvr complained....coz i get it that im just boring....yeah many people think im boring..MELVIN SYLVESTER - THE BORING AND LAMEST GUY!!!! i knew that long time ago...that is why i i hateshowing off my blog to anyone..i hate people at times..i hate my screwed up life sometimes......im boring and i dont know how to cure this stupid habit of mine....i disturb people a lot...bt i dont want them to think im irritating them... anyways, i still dont know what she thinks of me..all i know is that she is the greatest person i ever met..forever and always...she's craved in my heart like a tatoo...she means a whole damn lot to me...and i dont want to lose her...i quit so many thing in life for her..i quit being lazy...she just thought me to appreciate life...that is why i feel lonely when she dont communicate with me in anyway...i feel so lonely,cold,so dark when she's nt around..its like my whole emotion stirs and become sad and depressed...i would juz cry over her at home evry nite when i think of her...i really feel lonely without her presence..i just dont know how to live without her...writing this too makes me cry....she is somewhat special and i know i will never ever ever regret being with her by her side..i've gotta end this quick...i cant control my tears already....love u sha!