awesome

today was indeed an awesome day..i gt 49/50 for undang2....i really couldnt focus last nite...thnk u sha for forgiving me..i noe i have been harsh...still hoping to make things rite again...hahahaha...went futsal with my geng lama( karthik,benji,kamil,jason,hannan,thong,justin n vjay)...then went church..nothing happen...steph gt me a cake frm secret recipe due to her bday...we didnt talk much lah..i had to follow benji back...me n benji ate duck mee...awesome stuff...then lepak at dataran n watch movie...we watched Old Dogs...really cun movie...i wanted to tell sha,bt then she wanna go sleep ady..kesian her...she needed sleep badly coz she cleaned her hse...i'll tell her in the morning...then nw blogging n later watching football....hahahaha..

finally!!!!

finally she texted me juz nw morning when i was a sleep...i got up...was that so hard? i appreciate every msg she sends me...i keep in my inbox....she's just awesome...srry if i have been harsh on u sha....bt i just love u so much...dont ever do that again...thnx for wishing me gud luck...i'll keep my fingers crossed...u pray for me k....i hope im gonna get 50 straight for the test...

first?

finally the first time she didnt text me...i dont know wat to do..today 14 jan 2010..not even once she texted...she forgot me so fast...yup it shows that a promise is easy to forget...that is why whenever someone promises,one should think first before promising...its hard promising coz u need to have commitment...im sorry sha,bt this is the first time u forgot me...nt even a msg...remember what we promised?i just dont wanna talk bout it...each time..each time...each time i try make things gud,things do fall apart..i even reminded you to msg me each day when i run out of credit...she forgot...or maybe her dad forgot to pay her bills...its up to her to decide when she gives me the reason...if she lies than the relationship which i always dreamt of having,will crumble...im so sorry sha if i had hurt u...BUT u know i cant stand a day without talking to u...u know it n u.....im so sad rite nw...i really have no money in my wallet rite nw...RM 0...nt even a dollar...im flat broke..so i cannot top up...n this is what happens when my credit dies..arrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today went out for makan...finally gt out of my hse...best part i went out with sha...i loved it...i ate good food...chi-chatted a little...as usual i was left there figuring out wat they were saying...im used to that ady...go st john oso the same...go my class oso the same..go everywhere oso the same...its like im immune to it...sha oso talked less..probably coz she was interested with the other girls talking..i couldnt tell her there n there that i needed company...i just love her so much...she seemed happy with that so i didnt want to make it an issue..hw i wished that i could talk to her just nw as much as i could..bt its ok lah..the next time i'll talk to her if she is interested...or else i'll feel like a fool talking my part of the story n no one hearing it...ssometimes i feel that im the one always being left out...probably coz im a boring person i guess....must try to improve myself..bt it was so nice to see all of them...especially my sha...i was so nervous n anxious at first...bt when i reached yhere i found out that i shouldnt have felt that coz no one really cared...basically, im still boring...im sorry that i cant b like other guys whor so interesting to hang out with like gun or pun for instance...looks like i have to find myself a source of entertainment...my credit oso finishing..i dont know what im gonna do...i hope sha still msg me everyday telling bout her day n her plans...sometimes i feel like just breaking down..am i troubling her so much? its just that i cant live without her company...thinking bout it always makes me in tears..this blog is like for me to write bout my feelings for her...even if she ignores me sometimes,bt its still ok...she is a good fren...its probably just me causing trounle everytime to people....i just hope that one day i can just with her in a movie theatre n just hold her hands n watch the movie...only God know's right now hw i adore her so much....my friends called me crazy so many times coz 'll be texting her all day...bt i just cant help the fact that she is a close dearly sweetheart of mine...so many songs i wrote for her..poems too...if only someone could really understand the real meaning of my poems to her...she is still cute as ever....love u sha....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3z2kqJXMGc

all laughs....

haha...sha wat la u...no way i meant it for u...u r so gud to me...there's no way i'll do that to u....juz laugh out loud...XD....................bt i like it...u sound cute again although i noe u were serious...hahahha...i'll always msg things if i dont agree of..u chill k...ur hapiness is my hapiness....juz rock out...its cool that u have the chance to go chill with ur frens...mayb im a lil unlucky...i have no probs with u goin anywhere..i get the feeling that u r always bored at home...so forgive me if i had hurt u....love u always

i hate pple

i have this stupid thinking that each time my frens go out n me sitting at home doing nothing makes me real jealous especially when it involves someone i am close too...damn...bt ijust cannot say to the person...